Dating Life to Married Lovers

Hating My Heart For Loving You…

I wish there was a magic switch,that never faltered , that cut off my feelings for you…

You break me into a million pieces and catch them on fire, with a smile.

The worst part of it for me is, my loyal, sucker heart, smiles at the sight of you ….in the flames that ingolf my being.

I never really understood why, this stubborn heart won’t even give me some empathy. ..

You’ll never love me as I have spent years loving you..

Never fight for me as I still would for your honor…even as you destroy every belief I’ve had that you loved me.

I’m afraid that I’ll go on like the fool who’s deeply troubled loving every broken part of you.

I know you aren’t sitting around daily with my image burnt in your mind..

You’ve cut me out of your life and since then I’ve tried like hell to move on or least pretend. ..

I don’t want to love another again. …let alone you now…

But, I’m afraid I’ll go on loving you…

Every dark…and light part…

The twisted parts that society wouldn’t accept are what I’ve taken fully…

I’ve endured your wrath and experienced loving eyes looking at me.

You’re my addiction …

My favorite heartbreak …

Biggest mistake …

And killed inside me and now I’ll never be the same …never alive with another man because I’ve had every perfect taste of you..

I thought you would wake up and realize that you’d found something so rare in what I’d thought we shared …

I prayed and pleaded for a redo…another shot at me and you….

But instead of any ounce of care for the girl who is tortured in her soul for loving a man she can’t let go, God stays quiet and makes me stronger by deathly pains …

A part of me is dead…

Broken…

Jaded…

And never ever will I be the same…

I hate my heart for loving you…

But nothing I try works to undo my Tortured souls love for perfectly imperfect, misunderstood, you…..

Copyright 2019

(Don’t have any rights to the song above. I didn’t write it or sing it. No credit for the content of it and respectively all go to the artist and others who are responsible for the work. )

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